Sunday, March 29, 2009

Announcing the Arrival of Megan Leona Coons

Jacob and Grant's new cousin is finally here! I say "finally", but really the last few months have flown by, or at least in my opinion. After almost the exact same labors I had (almost two days worth-- ouch!), my sister gave birth to a baby girl. Megan is a very special little girl in many ways. First of all, she is named after two very special people who would have loved her very much. Her first name , "Megan", is after my sister's best friend Megan Philip. Actually, she was more than just Danielle's best friend- she was like family to us. My mom used to babysit Megan in the mornings when Megan's parents had to go to work. Her dad worked with my dad, and her mother worked in town. So she basically grew up with us. Megan was only seventeen when she was tragically killed in a car accident on her way to the feed store. Not a day goes by that we don't think of Megan, especially my sister.

"Leona" was my grandmother's middle name. (on my mom's side) We knew her simply as "Grandma Ginger." Those of you who knew her, or have heard stories about her know that Grandma Ginger was quite a feisty lady. And from what I saw tonight (little Megan girl does NOT like her feet touched) she has a little bit of that "feistiness" in her. (is feistiness even a word?!)

I truly believe little Megan Leona was sent from Heaven to help heal her Auntie's broken heart. For months I have been walking around feeling so empty handed, yet afraid to really open my arms to any baby. Babies make me feel panicky, especially when they cry. I think this could be due to the fact I had some dreams about Grant crying in the night. Boy babies especially bother me, and most of the time I have anxiety attacks when I see them. (hard to breathe, dizziness, sick to my stomach) But the worst part of all is feeling my arms ache. I guess you could compare it maybe to phantom pains. My arms feel incredibly empty; and no matter how much I hug Jake I still feel that another part is missing. Recently, I held a friend's new little girl, and I felt some relief. I also felt that if I could hold baby Sammie without falling apart, then I could hold baby Megan. So I took my little niece in my arms tonight, and it was the most wonderful feeling in the world. While my heart is breaking that she will never know her cousin Grant in this life, I am at peace to know that she is here, she is safe, she is loved, and Jacob is beyond thrilled to play with her when she is bigger.
So welcome to the world, little one! We're glad to have you here!

1 comment:

  1. Congratulations Auntie! I am glad to hear that your new niece is here safe and healthy. She is absolutely beautiful.



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